Dreams Don't Work Unless You Do - Life Update

I've started this post at least three times now and I think I finally know what I want to say!

I always like to keep my posts conversational, we are friends after all! I hope you think of my blog like you're catching up with an old friend, that is my ultimate goal.  I wanted to write today's post to share some big news with you, because it feels weird to me to just go on as if nothing has changed (don't worry - it's good news!).

So as you know, I went back to work when Avery was about 4 months old. I dreaded it and getting back into the swing of things at work and a new routine at home was really tough. Despite liking my job, clients, and friends at work, after a few months back it just didn't feel like anything was getting better/easier. I was doing a lot of crying (in the bathroom at work and at home) and felt completely drained. Brian and I stayed up maaaany late nights discussing our options and different ways we could switch things up to help.

After a lot of prayer, research, and planning, we made the decision that what would be best for our family would be for me to stay home with Avery.

It's crazy how getting exactly what you want can be so scary! When we finally got to the conclusion that it was even a possibility, I would have thought I would be jumping up and down with excitement! But there are so many other factors that weighed me down #adulting. This change wasn't taken lightly, was discussed ENDLESSLY - you've never seen two people talk in so many circles, and comes with sacrifices.

But at the end of the day, more time with my daughter and the opportunity to put more time into my passion (hello, Sugar Spice and Sparkle!), there really was no sacrifice too large.

I'm the type of person who can't sit around and complain for too long without taking action, and I want to urge you to do the same. Maybe something as drastic as leaving your job isn't possible, but whatever it is - big or small - in your life that is making you unhappy, please don't just sit around waiting for things to magically get better!

If there is one thing this year has taught me it's that we're not the ones in control of a lot, so for the stuff we can control you can bet your booty that I'm going to do whatever it takes to make the best of it all!

"I never dreamed about success, I worked for it." - Estee Lauder
"Do what you have to do until you can do what you want to do" - Oprah Winfrey

How It's Going

As much as I always wanted to be a stay at home mom I never really thought it would actually happen! The other day someone asked me what I do and I said "I'm an engineer" and as I was walking away I realized that isn't my answer anymore! I mean I guess technically it's still true tho :P but that isn't my job anymore.

I absolutely love being with Avery, never thought for a second I wouldn't. Any time she won't nap or is having a crazy day and I feel myself needing to take a deep breath I just remind myself I could be at the office right now and then nothing she does seems as stressful!

I can now confirm that being a mom full time is THE hardest job ever, but it is all worth it to be able to see her sweet little face when she naps or witness all the new things she learns for the first time.

Working on my blog more seriously is also amazing. On days my mom babysits Avery for a few hours the time flies by and I get so excited to create! Getting the chance to focus on blogging has shown me that it is something I truly love to do! You may have noticed seeing me more on Instagram the past couple weeks and a lot more blog posts too.

My next goal is to connect with some other moms in my area so Avery can make some friends and I can have a reason to get us out of the house occasionally! So if you're in Orlando - hit me up!

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